I was. [She winces a bit, starkly aware of how badly their timing sucks. But amidst all that embarrassment and disappointment, she does believe him when he says she hasn't ruined a thing.

They're still here, aren't they? Even if he now knows she'd kiss him given the chance, they can still be friends? Friendly? Fuck if she knows right now.]

I was just - you know. The ever so familiar 'came from a bad place' speech. [Which wasn't even a bad place, compared to most people in the City. What, she'd been lied to by one boy who'd declared a romantic interest in her, her ex had actually gotten with her to get close to her brother, the boy she'd developped feelings for had come and gone from the City without ever remembering or knowing of any of the events that had brought them closer, and in spite of not wanting to think about it in those terms, there'd been the issue with age and all. She winces again at her own syrupy lines.]

I feel like this is where I go home and listen to Taylor Swift.