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ginny.
i've just... gotten used to a certain way of relating to people. women. and it's hard to get back out, even when i should.
i've just... gotten used to a certain way of relating to people. women. and it's hard to get back out, even when i should.
[He's a fan of the written form, but he'll take her this way, too.]
Hi.
Hi.
You didn't say anything you shouldn't have. Uncomplicated dinner is fine.
[Oh if only he didn't know how to do complicated.]
It's great.
[Oh if only he didn't know how to do complicated.]
It's great.
Of course. Look, I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable.
I'm not, I promise. Just wanted to make sure. I mean—
[She doesn't want to throw around "friend" again and she doesn't want to throw in "concerned," either, though both are true. So she goes with - ]
I've known you the longest here. [ - which says a bit of both.] I know it doesn't feel like it to you, but whatever the case, I'm fond and I miss hanging out with you properly. That's all.
[She doesn't want to throw around "friend" again and she doesn't want to throw in "concerned," either, though both are true. So she goes with - ]
I've known you the longest here. [ - which says a bit of both.] I know it doesn't feel like it to you, but whatever the case, I'm fond and I miss hanging out with you properly. That's all.
[It doesn't really feel like it to him, no. However many little fragments of a history here he's collected.]
You've known me the longest, really? I don't think I've asked how long it's been.
You've known me the longest, really? I don't think I've asked how long it's been.
[She has to pause to think how long, exactly. She hit four years in December.]
Definitely before I got to my first year here. [She breathes out a laugh.] I've been acquainted with other people from around then, but actually known? That's you. Would've been Amory if he hung around.
[He showed up barely a month after her. Odd that she kept track of these things, but what else can you do here?]
Definitely before I got to my first year here. [She breathes out a laugh.] I've been acquainted with other people from around then, but actually known? That's you. Would've been Amory if he hung around.
[He showed up barely a month after her. Odd that she kept track of these things, but what else can you do here?]
I didn't realise.
[There's the squeak of an office chair as he sits, a slow exhalation.]
Sometimes, when I stop by [Building 12, he means, the apartment that never really belonged to him] ...it feels like other people are there.
[There's the squeak of an office chair as he sits, a slow exhalation.]
Sometimes, when I stop by [Building 12, he means, the apartment that never really belonged to him] ...it feels like other people are there.
You'd probably be able to tell me who some of them are.
...Am I different?
...Am I different?
Tell me about it. [And it's been six years, really, for him. Three years he barely remembers, here. Three more years he'll never forget, back home. He's missing the first three, everyone else is missing the latter.]
I don't know if I can be whoever I was to you.
I don't know if I can be whoever I was to you.
I wouldn't ask for that, anyway. A little unfair, don't you think?
[And she's living four years she shouldn't at all. She's meant to be sixteen, meant to be finishing school, meant to be living this completely different life. It's how it works here and she knows that (doesn't mean it doesn't suck sometimes).]
I'm not about to pretend you're the exact same bloke from before any more than you are, Chase. So call it getting reacquainted.
[She chuckles.]
Too sappy?
[And she's living four years she shouldn't at all. She's meant to be sixteen, meant to be finishing school, meant to be living this completely different life. It's how it works here and she knows that (doesn't mean it doesn't suck sometimes).]
I'm not about to pretend you're the exact same bloke from before any more than you are, Chase. So call it getting reacquainted.
[She chuckles.]
Too sappy?
Claire thought it was unfair that I couldn't be.
[There's a touch of regret it pointing that out.]
I don't think it's sappy unless you're planning to reacquaint me with a cutesy nickname.
[There's a touch of regret it pointing that out.]
I don't think it's sappy unless you're planning to reacquaint me with a cutesy nickname.
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